Dedication

I have been taking a theater class at our local theater. I found out that at the start of the new semester, my class of three is being combined with another class that is supposedly the same age, that is at a different time. The problem is, it's not really the same age, but a younger class (at least for me), and I can't make it with the new time.

It is just another thing I have done where I have been dedicated to something, and then left in the dust. Although this is probably one of the worst situations I have been in. I have been involved in several things it seems that I have put a lot of time and energy into, and others have not which caused problems. I think part of the problem is people don't want to be dedicated to something, or they are really busy with other things so they can't be dedicated to it.

One person in my class pretty much dropped out the week we had our first performance. They never really seemed dedicated to the class, it was just something they were doing. Fortunately one of my teachers realized this might be a problem and had someone else learn their lines a few days before the performance. This left us with three people total in our class. The other people in my class wanted to do a full production of a play next semester, and we knew it wasn't going to work with three people. We looked at our options, and ultimately it was decided by the teachers to combine classes. I am left in the dust. Merry Christmas.

I had thought hard about taking this sort of class before the semester started. I had originally wanted to take a Shakespeare class, but I was the only one to sign up. I wasn't sure I wanted to do this class because I hadn't done musical theater in a long time. I don't like to sign up for lots of things, and before now I didn't know why. I think the answer is I am always dedicated to the things I do, and in my subconscious want to make sure I can still be dedicated to the new thing, as well as what I am already doing.

There have been several times I have been in a play and everyone has been told to memorize lines for next week, and then the next week I am the only one with anything memorized. I know being able to memorize easily is a contributing factor, but it still always surprises me.

Now I have to find something else to do for next semester.